y

i'm sorry

i wanted to explain the whole truth

but i feel so guilty

and you are so innocent

just wait until i'm ready

a piece of paper

i was bored today. i thought about my past and realised.. i miss my friends so much!

i miss every single moment that we went through. how we met and bacome friends. we shared problems, laugh and tears. we taste the sweetness of life and the rainy days together. and how sss was created. mannnn its spinning around my head again and again.

i drew it last friday during civics exam. i got 30 minutes of time left so i just doodled it on my civivs paper. i didnt manage to finish it before the bells rang. so today, i continued the drawing and finished it. i know i'm not a good at drawing. so just shut up.

miss you nasha, hajar, ain, irena, zaty and putri! muahxxx

17

yesterday was my birthday. my 17th birthday. hmm.. i think i'm gettin' old. haha ok i'm being stupid now  ;p

at 9.30 this morning, mum suddenly bang on my door to wake me. she wanted me to accompany her to my sister's college. my dad stayed home because he just got back from work and wanted to sleep.zzz.we stucked in a traffic jam. there's a road block in the middle of the town. wtf?! cant they just do it somewhere else? gahh well lets get over it

fetched my sister. ngeee. in the car on our way to jj, ohh i have to listen to my mum babbling about money. the same thing she'd always told me. blahh blah blah blahhh3 haha. i tried to change the topic but it didnt work. muahahaha

mum drop my sis and i at jj and sent nurul to her art class and then pick up my dad. i followed my sis buying her stuff. then we have no where to go. jj is so small and boring. we wandered around, and did some window shopping. there are some stuff i like but i didnt buy 'em because its not that important ;p my sis bought a tshirt written 'my boyfriend is mr. happy'. hahaa. all 5 of us ate at kenny. its been so long since all of us eat together in 1 table. hmm  :)

at night, i called hajar. we talked for more than an hour. whoaa panas telinga haha miss her so much! 

so that is the summary of my birthday. wasnt that great tho. ahhh i wish my dad would let me drive!!! ffff

z

hmm.. today was fine. i think i spent most of my time at school  sleeping -__-  grr i'm so sleepy at school and i dont even know why.

i had enough sleep last night but still, i'm sleepy at school. i slept during maths and chemistry class. haha. i dont understand what pn mastura was talking about and i dont give a damn to pay attention to it.3 periods of math - what a torture  =_=

my chemistry teacher is so damn annoying. why cant he just explain everything and just ignore those who dont what to listen. i'm sick looking at his face.. his weird-looking face. grr i cant wait for him to finish his pointless talk. after that, i slept. feels good though my back hurtssss. grrr fara wake upppp. exam is just around the corner!!

the good thing about today is .. ahaaa i did both of my oral. weee i'm so glad i finished it today. i did my english oral in group with jasmine, katherine and ashwini. i think it went out well. but my bm oral was unexpected. my turn supposed to be after exams but the girls who supposed to do it today were absent. so i have to do it today -_- i'm so unprepared. i just went out there and talked whatever shit i want about the topic i chose. hehe  screw me  ;-p

geraldine told me this one joke. BAHAHAHAHAA it was soooo funneyh!

~~~~yaw

we live like this

time flies so fast

but we're moving too slow

we are chasing butterflies

but keep stumble down

lack of breath

___________________________________

the snow on that mountain is thoughtless

they live in paradise 

we live in the sun

they sleep through the night

but we stay awake

doing work full of mistakes

we want our desires

but they keep it away from us

___________________________________

who are we?

we are humans

we just have to work more

while the others just preparing their beds

they feed us nothing but the insignificant ones

they just talk and talk and talk

as if they understand what we've been through

but thats just a lie

they know nothing about us

___________________________________

and we

just stood there waiting

and hoping

and keep living 

not on earth 

but in the sun

until we manage 

to find our wings

and go to that paradise of ours.

i'm mentally ill right now. HAHAHAA! well anyway, this week has been a good and lazy week. i spent most of my time... sleeping! i got to stop doing that. (i've told myself many times but it doesn't work) *sigh* 

and one more thing. i dont want to write that shit here but i just cant help it. that mother fucker of yours needs to shut her fucking hole. HAHAHA get it?