my room needs a broom

clean.. but not as clean as i expected

hr ni rse sgt rajen utk kemas2 blk. so yea afte bfast, gi vaccum blk. habuk byk giler nk mati. tah bpe byk kali da bersin td hahaha. sedar x sedar, 2 thn da x kemas blk. duhh ape la nk jd fara ni.. malas beno. :P

td pegi la tgk2 kat tingkap tu. fuhhhh byk giler sarang labah2 n semut!!! euwww3! x tahan sgt da so pi la bersih kan bnde alah tu n tros bsh skali la langsir tu. byk semut mati kat lgsr tu. bodo btol tah mne die dtg tah. abuk melayang2 kat dlm blk tu. adehh bru bsh rmbt smalam ni da kne bsh blk. cadar2 pon gi cabut td. hahaha mmg sume nye tanggal. tikar tu pon tanggal.

dah tu.. gi mop pulak. bnjr da blkku. hahaha. mop tika tu skali. rse x sdp ati jer mse tu coz brsh kn blk sndr je. ibu blk kang mesti bebel suwoh bersih kn 1 umah. so, drpd kne bebel baek buat dulu. so abeh 1 umah kne vaccum n mop except dapur n blk kingkong becoz mse tu brg2 sume kua ltk kat blk die.

mmg sgt2 letih ouh. mlm ni sptt nye ade tusyen but ckgu skt perut pulak so cncel. nseb baek.. kalo x mmg melepet la kat meja tuu muahahahaa

itu diaa! antara spider yg smpt ku ambek gmba MUAHAHAHAHA

thats it.. pmbaziran mse utk hr ni. 

yaww~

holahoho

gahhh i miss you so damn much!  <3

last sunday, i met ain and aimi at.. of course, jj la. mne ade lg tmpt mnarik kat sban nii hoho. ouh ain changed.. big time. she wears tudung already! haha at first i wasnt recognise her like that but i know her figure haha so thats how i know thats her. actually, we were supposed to hang out with ged and the gang and also the sss. unfortunately, no one seems interested to go. *sigh*

i came late because i have no transport so i missed ged and weeru. but that evening jugak, kaklong wants to go to jj so dad send us laa~

ain bought contact lenses! ngeeee we had hard time to put it on her. hahahahahaaa! the lense didnt want to get in. sian ain... ish3  :P  oh yea,  i saw ged  just for a while. she was on her way back home. got a good news too hahahahhaha shhhhh!

susa btol nk msok kn bnde alah tu haha

ok, you do the front, i do the back..

Gahhhh i'm so tired of my life!

only a few days left before february come knocking. time really flies darn fast! and i still haven't prepared myself for everything especially the study stuff :(   9 more months.. 9 more struggling months! hahhhh! i have everything planned out but as always.. i never did any of them! fara ko mmg bangang ar. grrrr! 

its chinese new year so i have a week off school. well i hope i dont mess up this holiday too...

regarding the title above,,, HAHA! it came out from the head prefect's mouth. i was on my was to class from physics lab and then kumuta started stopping me jokingly. so we were facing face to face. but then jane came from behind and came close to me and said, 'okay you do the front, i do the back!'. BAHAHAHA you know what i mean?  :P

i remembered last thursday during chemistry class. we were doing this one experiment and i was with jane and ged. then jane says, 'shafara you look so emo la. i think you need a bf,' and i was like..aaaaaaaa? hohoho jane dont worry la. i'm hunting.. i'm hunting.  :PPPP

ok cut the crap out. everyone is studying so cik fara, gi study laa nt nyesal(self motivation) . haha

~yaw

cross country

Saturday - 17/01/09

ahh its one of the annual event i hate because its tiring and i dont think i get the benefit for myself. but it wasnt so bad. haha! A096 - thats my number, not my favourite number though. i wish to keep the number but oh well they want it back. dumbass!

i can feel my heart beating so fast and sometimes i feel like i couldnt breathe before the run. wahhh. cuak sgt2. bukan nye aper, just afraid that during the run, people will left me behind because ya know.. i'm not a fast runner :D

at first, i ran with ili and syasya but after a while, we lost syasya. we lost her when going down the first hill. while we were running down the hill, we saw Jane already running up. fuhh she was damn fast! after passing the last checkpoint, i lost ili. haha she ran before me and i couldnt catch up :P i overtook her minutes before reaching the finish line. ahh almost got the top 30 laa! sick ass! 

so damn tired after that. red house only gave a bottle of mineral water. i paid rm3 and the only thing i got was the mineral water? no bread or something? wtf?! then, went up to the hall. guess what? the guest was Dr Farrah Hani Imran. awww she is gorgeous+amazing+talented+athletics+smart!by the age of 32, she already done so many cool things. i think everybody loves her.. even the teachers. and yeahhh the teachers were sick man! totally beyond control! HAHA truja sgt tgk dr. tuh  :D

It just so happens to be Pn. Zuraidah's birthday today and we totally surprised her. she thought someone fainted in my class so she just rushed up and... surprise!!! :D she alnost cried i think HAHAHAAHA! we bought her a cake and we just ate it in class before the gotong-royong. After all, it was a fine day.

by myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams?
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself
I can’t hold on
To what I want when I’m stretched so thin
It’s all too much to take in
I can’t hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I turn my back I’m defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they’ll
Take from me ‘till everything is gone
If I let them go I’ll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I’ll be outrun
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer
How do you think I’ve lost so much
I'm so afraid that I'm out of touch
How do you expect... I will know what to do
When all I know Is what you tell me to
Don’t you know
I can’t tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I can’t seem to convince myself why
I’m stuck on the outside

new hair cut

gahhh last monday i went to a barber shop and had my hair cut. i dony know i wanted to cut my hair so badly tho. haha. well i think my hair was too long and i havent trim it for a while. i told the barber i want to have fringe and layered on the back. 

these are what i want it to look

but i got it like this!!!

i hate it!! of course the picture look better than me but.. thats not what i want! i look like a girl from the 70's with that fringe plus the braces i have. i look stupid and lame. that barber is one sick ass. grrr

someone's birthday

Ili Nashrin a.k.a. Erica Bone was born on the 5th of January '92. HAHAHAHA so she's turning 17 this year! we celebrate her birthday the day before her real birth day.ahakk2 :D


Ili came to my house at 10++ in the morning. I was tuning my guitar at that time. We talked3 for a while and planned to go to.. ocean. in other word - pacific. we got a project to do. HAHAHAHA!!! :D

then, we went to secret recipe senawang. we walked all the way to mcd just for the toilet. wakakakaka! then we met izaty. we ordered our foods. and yeah kami memang budget weh. haha. =)))

mr. nashrin joined the club then. :P he didn't want to eat. hmmm?? there, we decided to go to city park. i dont know what are we going to do there. bosan jugak kot smpai sne melopong jer nt.

there, we played with the exercising thingy. haha its fun! :P then, i bought a kite, a colourful kite, after that 2 monsters kept beging me to buy it. HAHA! =) eyh the kite wont fly high with us laa. pity us. there was a chinese guy trying to help us but he gave up :( .. the stick on the kite broke. oh crap we have to pay 50c for that. what a greedy little monkey. and the seller said that if we want the kite to fly high, we have to buy a new long string. rm 1 for that string. huhhhhhhhh greedy monkey times 10! wekkkk

hehehe then our kite flew highhhh. :DDD but not for long. the kite fell out of the sky and stuck at a tree!. *sigh* the string was cut. an indian man tried to help us with it. thanks to him, we got our kite back. :D we got alot of publicity there. HAHAHA!


the befday girl


ape name bnde alah tu haa?










tu budak yg penuh bgaye. pegang 2 layang2. tinggi2 lak tuhh. jeles2




layang2 yg tsngkut tuhh.

TUTUP TIRAI. BUBYE!

1st week of school review

backkk to school... AGAIN! ergh i hate school but not entirely. since this is my last year of school, my senior year, the legendary year for everyone that is 17 y/o this year, i hopeee this year will rock my ass!

*sigh*unfortunately, i could feel the tension, the pressure, now. first day of school wasn't that bad. but the next day, i already felt the pressure. homework. revision. exercise. books. tuition. position. spm. i'm sick of hearing those words. i would glad to hear the word 'free!' and 'over!'. but i dont think it would just drop by here. :(

uhh jasmine wanted to sit with me. ok thats a good thing. maybe i can improve something somehow. but today, friday, teacher wanted us to change our places. damn it laa. i sit with ged. i dont mind sitting with ged because i think it would be fun to sit with her. she laugh a lot. but i just dont like the position - in the middle of the class and far away from jas and ash which i had sat close with for one year. cant sing with them anymore laaa :(((

i hate being in comfort zone because i know i will fall down and hit the rock bottom. or maybe burrid beneath it and i have to struggle hard to find a way out. crap!

over all, 1st week of school wasn't great as i expected. :|

an experiance i had

Wednesday - 31.12.08 - 8.20p.m. - kene buat surgery @ Dr. Helmy's clinic

damn it! i'm actually freakin' scared when i heard the doctor said that i have to undergo a surgery. he said that there is still a fucking tooth stucked up there and hasn't come out yet. *sigh* bongok punyer gigi.

a specialist doctor came to the clinic to do the operation. dupp dapp dupp dapp! takott! i went into the room and there's the doctor, preparing himself for the surgery. awww! the doctor seems nice tho haha. he said that he will give me an injection first - anesthetic injection i guess. at that time i dont really scared because i think i'm used to injection before. but after seeing the injection, i was like WTF?? that thing was huge than i expected. then he injected me at some places around the area of the tooth. ouchhhhh! it hurts big time! i didnt want to cry but i cant stop my tears from coming out. haishhh

i felt my mouth numb. then, he started doing his things. i dont know what he did because i dont feel anything at all. the tools that he used were creepy and pointy. he asked his assistant to put a goggles on my eyes. its yellow and everything i saw was yellow. erghh

"if it hurts, dont be afraid to tell me," thats what he said before he pulled out a big pencil-like tool. Then he started doing his things again. That tool let out a zinggggggggg noise. i really afraid of that sound. i couldn't imagine myself without the injection. it must hurt and i would scream hysterically! arrrrrrrrrrrr! i saw some water splashing out of my mouth and my blood was sucked into a tube holded my the assistant.

after a while, 3 faces were looking at me. well, not entirely me. my teeth of course! a doctor from the other room came and have a peek on my surgery. my parents came in for a while to see it but i guess they felt sick looking at the blood haha so they went out of that room. after a while, i heard "assalamualaikum!!". oh yeah it dr. helmy. voilaaa! he looked stunning with his spikey hair. wakakakaka. and yeah, 4 faces were looking at me at that time. all of them looked serious enough to scrare me. arghh

the doctor finally found the fucking tooth and chained it with a gold chain. it took several attempts for the chain to attach to it. *sigh* dr.helmy brought my parents in to let them see the tooth and my dad snapped a photo of it.

yeap thats me

then, the doctor sew my gums because he had sliced it before. i'm so tired lying there and open my mouth for 1 and a half hour. finally, its over. 

yaww~