invisible

i sit at home doing nothing for 3 days in a row. omg this is torture! seriously i'm bored. ok i did some things but i didnt enjoyed doing all those things. doing something that i hate doesnt make me feel better at all. 

I'd rather do nothing and be happy than do something I know I don't love.
:what happens in vegas:

someone, pleaseee take me out of here! it was like i'm living in a prison -.-

i'm currently emo-ing about everything.. well, err not exacly everything la. i'm only happy when i think about 'dushdushdashdash' (the name should not be written here). haha. tp itu dah dikire syok sendiri la xDDD

today, in the car, on the way to chemistry tuition, mum just said something that really really.. err i dont know what to say. frustrated?? ye kot. 

m: tahun ni ko xyah raye tau

f: yela (in a really boring mood. igt kan die mksud kn xyah enjoy2 sgt coz of spm tp..)

m: xyah raye, xyah bli baju raye

ohh myyy! you dont know how frustrated i was. dah la shopping raye mmg saat yg ditunggu2 fer raye and die leh kate no shopping.. sumpah benci and lagi emo -___- eee dlm hati nk je kate, if i'm not getting anything fer raye, no way i'm going back to perak humphh

~~~yaw

a bleeding tree

The middle or second born child or children often have the sense of not belonging. They fight to receive attention from parents and others because they feel many times they are being ignored or dubbed off as being the same as another sibling. Being in the middle a child can feel insecure. The middle child often lacks drive and looks for direction from the first born child. Sometimes a middle child feels out of place because they are not over achievers and like to go with the flow of things. 

Being a middle child would mean they are loners. They really don’t like to latch on to a person in a relationship, there fore they have trouble keeping one due to lack of interest. Not liking to take the limelight for anything, they are not over achievers and just simply work enough work to get by, and typically that goes with school as well as a career. They are however very artistic and creative. If forced to use abilities they will work well, but do not work well under pressure. They often start several projects but rarely keep focused long enough to finish a project. The best career move for a middle child would be along the lines of using their creative. Going into a writing or journalism career, and into a career that they could freely express themselves would be good. Anything that would have hours that are flexible, and projects that frequently changed would be good for a middle born child. Since relationships are not of high importance to a middle child, often times they are alone. However, the best possible match for a middle child would be a last born.

The good news is that middle child syndrome can be easily identified and is not physical in nature and very treatable, especially if noted early. Therefore, just a change in the parents' attitudes often will go a long way toward alleviating the situation. Parents should always be mindful that the middle born child often receives the least amount of attention. This is not to say the parents are bad. This is simply a natural reaction and often done subconsciously.

just read and understand it.. i lived through this condition. it is not fatal, but it is difficult. x larat nak bace?? ahh bace jugakk!  ;p

but hey, i'm not a loner. i feel great when my friends are around me. just a loner at home i guess.. arhh sedeh :(((

i wish my parents read this

~~~yaw

chasing spider xDD

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uish masok air ;p ili punye pasal la neh. HAHAHA! ili, ko punye aku punye gak en? lol lol~  please pull me back to Earth xD spm spm spm!!

har har post kali ni memang merepek. sbb dah bosan tahap gaban naga menyanyi. taa~

~~~yaw!!

blow the candles out

09.09.09

what a beautiful numbers aite? ohh you will see that date on calender again only after a millenium. humph we already died at that time and mungkin da jadi petroleum or natural gas dah. hahahaha yeke? hahaa abaikan~

oh yeah 09.09.09 was a remarkable date for me as it was the last day for trial ( sape yg amek science je lah yew ). bio was the last subject. weeheee i can relax and rest my dearest brain for a while. ahhh that day was fun! was fun! was fun! was fun! was fun! ( echoes ;p ) hehehe teruja betol? lol spm tak abes lagik .. 

hmm smpai umah je trus peluk katil weee~ seronok nye leh tido lame2 tnpa gangguan buku hoho. ok i slept for a while and then get myself ready fer tonight. buke pose same kwn lahh. har har har. ili picked me up and we went to... that place lahh (tatau name tmpt tuh). it was only the six of us; me, ili, epy, dolah, kasyi and thariq. si toyol libau n azhar cancel pulak humph. the foods were okay laa but i just ate a lil' bit. kenyang da time  tu tp skejap je kenyang nyer -.- dadadadaaa at 10, went to phy tuition. 

before i went to tuition, mom just asked a few questions..

m: tadi buka dgn sape?

f: ili

m: lagi?

f: kawan2 laen

m: sape kawan2 laen tu?

f: epy, dolah, kasyi ...

(before sempat bg tau sume name..)

m: dolah? asal x suruh dolah je anta pegi tsyn?

f: ha?

m: tmpang la die gi tusyen?

f: hah?? (bilo maso pulak laa ibu kenal si dolah nih??) 

HAHAHA! sumpah xtau mcm mne ibu leh fanatic giler ngan dolah nih lol lol lol !! 

huuu i will not go to school for a week (until wednesday). i will definitely be sitting at home doing nothing or maybe buat kueh kot haha. sooo anyone, if takde geng nk kua or bosan, just gimme a call aye! tp kene sediakn transport or driver yg leh jmpt pegi and blk lah hohohoho

~~~yaw!

everyone's perfect in unusual ways

"im loosing myself
trying to compete with everyone else
instead of just being me
i dont know where to turn
ive been stuck in this routine
i need to change my ways
instead of always being weak

the mirror can lie
cause it cant show you whats inside
and it can tell you your full of lies
its amazing what you can hide
just by putting on a smile"

oh ohh i agree with those lines up there ^^^ hee

okayy two more papers to go, chemistry and bio. fuhh then i can be free just for a little while. skejap pon jd lah ;pp obviously this is a short post. taaa

~~~yaw!