Morgen ist mein Geburtstag

If I were to write a diary, I would write like this...

Dear Diary,

on the 7th of March 1992, a happily married couple gave birth to their second child. The baby is a girl and she is very healthy, weighing 0.36 kg. They pampered her with undying love, fed her with the most nutritious foods they could ever give to a baby and give her every single toy she wanted. Even so, they said the fat little baby cried a lot and she does not like being around with other people. If somebody tries to held her, she will cry. If somebody did a bad baby joke with her, she will also cry. Most importantly, she cried about almost everything. Sometimes there's nothing the parents can do to comfort her but to left her alone and wait for her to automatically stop crying.

The married couple is busy with work, whether they like it or not, they have to send the baby and her big sister to a housewife, to take care of them when they were working. Over some times, the baby is getting used to the surrounding of meeting new strangers. The baby likes it actually :) Four years later, the baby was admitted to hospital. The reason was still unknown until today but she remembered hearing her father said it was a fever and probably congenital heart disease. Yikes! After a week being hospitalized the baby was discharged and live healthy again except, she is no longer chubby and fat. She turns out thin and cute no more.

She went to her first kindergarten at the age of 5 at Tadika Mickey Mouse or Tadika Seri Comel if you preferred the new name. The kindergarten was co-own by her aunt and so every afternoon she went to her aunt friend's house, which is also her teacher at the kindergarten. She called her Cikgu Sakinah. She had lunch everday at Cikgu Sakinah's house until one day, Cikgu Sakinah served her vegetables soup. She likes vegetables very much and ate it with great pleasure but at the end she threw up a lot. She cursed the vegetables! Hence from that very day until now, she hates eating vegetables.

Seven years after she was born, the baby turned into a girl. The girl went to her first primary school - SK King George V. She had a lot of embarrassing moments over there which should not be told here :) One thing she definitely won't forget is that she was bullied by a boy named Iskandar :( She told her father about that and he went to see her teacher. Yes, Iskandar got scolded badly by the teacher and so she was very happy :) Eight months later she has to leave for the new school near her house - SK Taman Tasik Jaya. A lot of great moments she can remember there.

During primary school, her character bloomed. She is no longer the girl who cries a lot on a lot of things. She is strong, hardcore-hearted but deep in side, she is a shy person :) She had her first little sister when she was eight and so she felt her parents' attention was no longer onto her. She started to rebel bit by bit. She is so into rock music and also exhibit some characteristic of behavior considered typical of the gender role of a boy, in other word, tomboy :P Her best friends were Nani, Pika, Salbiah and Nabila at that time.

Time passed by and she is getting older. She went to SMK Puteri as her secondary school. But before that, she had live four days at SMK Pendeta Za'ba before getting into Puteri. Puteri is a girl school and that really gives electric shock to her. She never know that kind of same-gender-school existed! Nevertheless, she survived that way. She meets a lot of wonderful-crazy-smart people there and learnt a lot of things. Ili, Ain, Hajar, Irena, Izzaty, Puteri are her best and good friends until today.

School is the best place on earth to her but as a normal human being, she has to leave school and get into college. She was offered to further her study at German-Malaysian Institute and hoping she could further her study in the Nazi-popular engineering land, Germany. She loves that place but sometimes she feels like certain people there are the pain on her ass :P But that is life she has to go through, no pain, no gain, no adventure no life ;D There, she changed bit by bit again. Rock music is still in her soul and hip hop is always in her heart but she is now getting sensitive than ever, thanks to the peeps there who love to make her cry. She feels like she is a baby again now :)

This is the tale of a baby, who has turned into a girl and now, into a lady. This is the synopsis of a life of a girl name Fatin Nur Shafara.

Tomorrow is her 19th birthday. She will celebrate it alone, without her family and girlfriends around for the first time. Man this is sick!

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I want you guys hereeee with me!!! :(((

~~~yaw!

sleepy + hungry

Ehh Jumaat dah harini! Seronok nyeee minggu ni dah habis! Sebenarnya aku rasa miggu ni berlalu dgn sgt perlahan tau. Isnin haritu je, aku dah rase mcm hari Jumaat, tak sabar nak cuti lagi punye pasal. Oh yea haritu, aku tatau lah nape aku mengidam nak makan macam2. Nasik beryani la, roti ngan eskrim la, susu coklat la, daging salai la. Masa aku tgh syok mengexpress kan kelaparan aku ni dekat Gee, Serk yang mcm makcik bru balik dr pasar tani tu pon join jugak, tup2 dia cakap dia tgh mengidam mknn Western time tu. Maka malam tu jugak ktorang plan gi makan Western! Ke Austin ayuhhh!

Aku ingat ktorang pegi berempat je, aku Gee Serk and Shakir the driver, tgk2 dorang angkut yg lain jugak - Loqo Wak Wafy and Mon. Oriate laa meriah sikit gitu. Aku makan chicken chop je. Die org ni sume makan lamb chop lah bagai. Aku nak je amek lamb chop tu tapi aku pk nak kunyah tu je dah cukup buat aku penat so baik jgn nyusahkan diri sndr. Hahah. Harga boleh tahan la dgn service dia. Cuma aku tak rase kenyang je. Balik bilik aku lapar balik hua8

Makin hari makin letih. Kerja rumah seguni TTO kasik setiap miggu. Tambah lagi dengan buku2 yang perlu di-revise satu lori. Memang tak tido malam aku setiap hari, tapi once aku dapat tido, mmg haram la aku nak jage balik guna alarm henfon ni. Kene guna tenaga manusia jugak utk kejut kan aku. Setiap pagi aku set jam pkul 6.30 tapi lately, sedar2 je tgk jam pkul 7.30. Memang menggelabah lah siap tiap pagi. Nak bekpes pon tak sempat.

Setiap hari aku complain lapar tapi makan nye tak pun. Lapar memang lapar tapi bile tgk mknn kat sini, aku hilang selera la. Rase mcm muak dah padahal bukan slalu pon aku mkn sini hahah. Entah macam mane operasi nk gemok aku ni nak berjalan dengan lancar entah. Kalo lapar sangat pagi2 aku pegi beli roti coklat namposen kat koop tu je sebijik. Everyday after habis kelas aku akan pegi Wak Dol tgk lauk ape yang ade. Minggu ni mmg sumpah lauk takde yg menarik maka aku ikat jelah perut aku ni ngan tali raffia haha ;D

Sekarang ni, di saat aku tgh menaip ni, perut aku tak abes2 mengeluarkan alunan bunyik2 tertentu. Sumpah lapar doe. Setiap malam je aku rse lapar giler babeng nak mati. Kalo cafe bukak 24 jam xpe gak, ni awal2 lg dah tutup. Mane aku nk carik makan malam2 buto ni jang! Kalo cmni tiap2 hari mungkin aku boleh terbunuh right on the spot skang jugak. Punca kematian: kelaparan yg teramat sangat. Haih ni belum kene duduk Afrika lagi ni -.-"

And lagik satu, aku baru abes layan movie Letters To Juliet ni tadi. Best la jugak. Ending die sweet, dah cukup boleh buat aku nk sambung berangan balik dah.Aku rate 9 out of 10 je la sebab hero die tu tak brape nk ensem la haha. Anyway aku patut buat hw skang tapi taleh pk doe. Tensen den jawab soklan ni dr tadi tak dapek2. Last2 aku pegi menaip natang ni hahaha. K ah ciao!

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Aku nak ayam!!! ;[

~~~yaw!

willkommen März!

MARCH HAS FINALLY ARRIVED!

Damn weyh seriously time flies so fast this year. I thought I just celebrated new year last week -.-"

Days after days, burdens on my shoulder and in my head are regenerating so fast that I feel I could not keep up with the pace. The real A-level exam is coming up this May. We, the GAPP students have to finish the syllabus by the end of this month! Actually, we already covered all the syllabus for this May exam but you know, A-level is split into two parts, AS and A2 in which the A2 exam will be on this October. That means, there is too little time to cover the A2 syllabus which is obviously way harder than AS. So our TTOs is dragging us to study for the second part now so that we won't get too tensed up during A2. So we are currently studying the syllabus which are not included in the AS exam. Man I am exhausted! I have to study new things which is not important yet (at this moment) and I also need to study and revise on the topics for AS. You get what I mean?! EXHAUSTED!

But Fara you have to be strong okay. Remember, this is your time to revenge mwahahaha! xD Hopefully hopefully hopefully I can get 15 points on AS. Please la please la please la Fara. If not, I'll be very disappointed with myself. Huh banyak bebel kan

Anyway, March came with splendid weather! ;D Today I woke up in misty windy morning that makes me think twice if I should wake up that instant or just snooze my alarm for one last time. If you guessed I woke up instantly, then you don't know me. Okay! Gotta go!

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HAHA!

~~~yaw!

Annual Dinner GAPP

Seminggu sudah berlalu dan baru kini aku nak update pasal event Annual Dinner GAPP yang berlangsung pada 20 Feb lepas bersamaan dengan hari Ahad.

Actually, nak cakap aku excited pasal event ni tak jugak, nak cakap aku tak suke event ni pun tak. Senang citer aku pergi event ni dgn ketiadaan perasaan haha. Aku tak excited sebab mengenangkan aku kne perform malam tu dgn diriku ni yg tak prepare sgt and pasal baju ape yg sesuai. Tapi aku sgt looking forward in this event sebab aku tak sabo nak tgk mknn ape yg akan di-serve kan malam tu and tak sabo jugak nk tau ape jadi malam tu hahah ;D

Since aku tgh elok beristirehat kat rumah ni, inginku mengambil kesempatan mengupdate blog yg tidak seberapa ni dgn al-kisah yg berlaku pada hari tersebut.

Bermula dgn petang dalam pkul 4 gitu, aku kene pegi hotel tu skejap utk buat sound check. Time aku sampai orang tu tengah setup kan lg barang2 atas platform so kene la tunggu die abes pasang sume bru buat sound check. Mule2 elok je band aku je yg ade situ. Tup2 lepas barang abes pasang, senior datang, trus dorang sound check dulu. Haiyoo. Den ponek tunggu lamo ni, dorang dpt sound check dlu plak. Dah la mase suntuk gile sbb by 6.30 aku da mesti siap balik kat gmi utk gi sane balik naik bas. Tengok2 dah pkul 5.30 dorang ni tak abeh2 sound check nye lagi so aku balik jelah gmi balik, pegi siap2 dlu. Mampus lah sound check tu, bia dak2 ni yg handle nanti hahaha

sambil2 tu kene tolong susun hadiah dulu

pokcik2 tgh setup barang

ini wak

seniors tgh sound check

ni dia door gift. den dapek usha dulu

Balik gmi aku trus siap2, tapi pkai baju bese je dlu. Malas nak bersiap awal2 lagi pon kne naik bas so mcm pelik je siap cun2 pastu nek bas mwahahah. Budak2 yang bagik name utk naik bas punye la ramai, last2 brape kerat je yg naik and membazir mase je ktorang tunggu bdk2 tu, last2 tgk dorang nek kete. Hampeh btul. Sesampai je kat hotel tu bru lah bersiap2 dekat surau. Naseb bek dekat surau ngn hall.

Okay the rest tgk gamba jelah. Malas nk type pepanjang, bukan org bace pon ;p

Syaza, Fara, Ila

Performance by the seniors, dgn lagu Bersama Semula. kalo nak tgk gi kat sini

samo abe2 klate, Payik and Jere ;p

ni partner aku nyanyi malam nt, Fatir

emcee of tha night, Wafy and Syaza

Slot seniors ucap penghargaan kat TTOs, diwakili oleh kak Farah cun ;D

AWARDS:

Mama's Boy Jr : Po

(kategori plg slalu balik umah)

Mama's Boy Sr. : Ikhsan

Shamless King Jr. : Abe

Shameless King Sr. : Jere

Actually ade byk lagi award mcm class clown, sleeping beauty, best attitude, most hardworking and so on. Tapi banyak naa la hai nk upload, amek yg last2 nye category je lah

Performance by the juniors. Lagu 1st, Durch den Monsoon :)

Performance by juniors lagi, cuma kali ni Payik amek alih position aku b4 ni dgn lagu Pelita. Best woo. After that ade Payik punye solo performance tapi tade gambo lak

King of The Night. Senior..ta igt name

Queen of the Night, kak Farah comel

Fara, Syera, kak Farah and Gee

Ini Serk, wakil for juniors utk bagik adiah kat seniors. Yang ni kan, aku tgh duduk2 tau pastu tbe2 Frau Yap kasik aku coklat, aku igt aku bertuah gila lah dpt coklat malam tu, rupe2 nye tu utk bagi senior, hampeh jeh. Last2 aku kasik kat Met, dah sume senior pmpuan dah dpt coklat lol

junior girls. From left, gee qila syera pika yana akin

keith, ila, Fara, Eko, Navin, Zak yang comel, Gee

ini Zak, dia sangat mollig xD

(mollig tu mksud nye comel bulat kecik in german)

Seniors

Abe, Fara, Wafy

Ini Nad. Thanks to her yg byk godek2 camera aku, kalo tak mmg tak byk la gambo aku bahaha

Ini Eko, dia orang iban woo. Comel gak tuh and pelat

Ini Loqo, die sgt kecik

Paeh, Navin, Ila, Loqo, Fara

Serk, Ijat, Loqo and Wak

And this is Frau Yap Leng Lee, my German teacher. Dia la yg dah plan all this stuff. Without her determination on this event, mgkin sucks kot. So thanks to her for this great event! :)

The End!

Panjang kan post kali ni. Tapi actually panjang sebab byk gamba je huhu. Anyway, malam ni memang syok, aku mmg enjoy, but ade yg aku tak puas ati jugak, aku makan sikit gile!!!! Separuh pinggan nasik and suku pinggan meehun je. Dah la lauk die pon cam tak best. Tade ayam! Grrr! Ape punye hotel ni -.-" and2 tak sempat nak rase desserts die sbb aku busy merayap sana sini :[ sodihhhhh

Oh ye theme malam tu sepatut nye masquerade tapi ade lah makhluk2 atasan GMI tu yg x kasik theme tu so the theme changed to Night Of Stars :)

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GAPP batch 2010! tak sume yang ade, but that's okay la. Next year ade lagi :)

~~~yaw!

the beast is a prince

Heyp it's Sunday 3.22 am right now and I am still awake. Truthfully, I should be studying now but I just can't because my fingers are fast running on this keyboard typing THIS! haha! What I want to say is, I just wasted my 3 hours of precious golden-diamond alloyed time reading somebody's blog. Well for me, I don't really want to call it wasting time, because I actually gained something from it :)

Want to know what I found? I just found out that 'he' is really33333333 to infinity cute! I swear! I'd noticed that before but it just didn't seem convincing. After looking at his picture there on the blog, awwwww sumpah comel dow! Aku gelak guling-guling sorang-sorang sampai menitis2 air mata tengak gamba tu. Ape la aku bodoh sangat tak prasan die kiut gitu xD With his spiky hair and fair skin..uuuh I'm melting I'm meeeelting muahahaha! Feels like screaming my lungs my throat my tongue out, looking at him ♥

Unfortunately I'm not able to see him any longer because that is the destiny Allah has put us into. Too bad :( but that's okay bebeyh, we can still keep in touch aite. Yes I will never forget you and I'll mark your words, I'll never play around play less and I will stay strong.

If I were given a chance, I would love to tell you that you're so damn cute and it'll be lovely if you be my abang angkat ammmm! Hahahaha! Good bye pretty boy :)

Das ist alles. Ich mochte dich treffen aber wir haben keine zeit. Es its traurig. *seufzen

Auf Wiedersehen!

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Look at his clear-blue eyes and pinkish red cheeks and cute little rabbit teeth pointed out of his curvy lips. That is how I look like when I saw 'his' picture. Probably.. ;D

~~~yaw!