grr grrr! geram! garam!

Tau tak ape aku rase?

Aku rase menyampah sangat ngan kau and kau.

Kau pertama:

Memang dari dlu lagi aku tak suke cara kau tu

Aku igt lama2 boleh lah get along dgn kau

Skang memang dah lama, tapi still aku tak suke cara kau tu

Susah lah aku nk describe, tapi yg pentng, kau annoying!

Banyak aku bersabar dah untuk kau

Tapi malam ni rase mcm nak meletup pulak

Sebab tu aku tulis, drpd berperang mulut kucing anjing ngan kau

Kau kedua:

Dulu aku suke kau doe

Kau memang pandai buat aku tergelak

Tapi aku tatau ape jadik, kau brubah cmtuh jeh

Aku igt kite bleh lah jadi best friend ke hape kan

Tapi dah kau nmpk aku mcm batu je kat sini, putus harapan aku

Kau still boleh buat aku tergelak lagi

But it doesn't feel fun like before anymore

Tak paham la nape kau brubah drastic sangat

Kalau aku ade buat salah, bagi tau laa

Ape laa

Kalau tak mane aku nak tau ape silap aku

Sekian.

(Actually aku tak abes lepas geram lagi ni huhu)

Random Photo:

Completely random.

~~~yaw!

Er hat gestern mich angerufen

Betol ke tak entah title tu hahah

And he called himself 'abang'

Awwwww

~~~yaw!

Morgen ist mein Geburtstag

If I were to write a diary, I would write like this...

Dear Diary,

on the 7th of March 1992, a happily married couple gave birth to their second child. The baby is a girl and she is very healthy, weighing 0.36 kg. They pampered her with undying love, fed her with the most nutritious foods they could ever give to a baby and give her every single toy she wanted. Even so, they said the fat little baby cried a lot and she does not like being around with other people. If somebody tries to held her, she will cry. If somebody did a bad baby joke with her, she will also cry. Most importantly, she cried about almost everything. Sometimes there's nothing the parents can do to comfort her but to left her alone and wait for her to automatically stop crying.

The married couple is busy with work, whether they like it or not, they have to send the baby and her big sister to a housewife, to take care of them when they were working. Over some times, the baby is getting used to the surrounding of meeting new strangers. The baby likes it actually :) Four years later, the baby was admitted to hospital. The reason was still unknown until today but she remembered hearing her father said it was a fever and probably congenital heart disease. Yikes! After a week being hospitalized the baby was discharged and live healthy again except, she is no longer chubby and fat. She turns out thin and cute no more.

She went to her first kindergarten at the age of 5 at Tadika Mickey Mouse or Tadika Seri Comel if you preferred the new name. The kindergarten was co-own by her aunt and so every afternoon she went to her aunt friend's house, which is also her teacher at the kindergarten. She called her Cikgu Sakinah. She had lunch everday at Cikgu Sakinah's house until one day, Cikgu Sakinah served her vegetables soup. She likes vegetables very much and ate it with great pleasure but at the end she threw up a lot. She cursed the vegetables! Hence from that very day until now, she hates eating vegetables.

Seven years after she was born, the baby turned into a girl. The girl went to her first primary school - SK King George V. She had a lot of embarrassing moments over there which should not be told here :) One thing she definitely won't forget is that she was bullied by a boy named Iskandar :( She told her father about that and he went to see her teacher. Yes, Iskandar got scolded badly by the teacher and so she was very happy :) Eight months later she has to leave for the new school near her house - SK Taman Tasik Jaya. A lot of great moments she can remember there.

During primary school, her character bloomed. She is no longer the girl who cries a lot on a lot of things. She is strong, hardcore-hearted but deep in side, she is a shy person :) She had her first little sister when she was eight and so she felt her parents' attention was no longer onto her. She started to rebel bit by bit. She is so into rock music and also exhibit some characteristic of behavior considered typical of the gender role of a boy, in other word, tomboy :P Her best friends were Nani, Pika, Salbiah and Nabila at that time.

Time passed by and she is getting older. She went to SMK Puteri as her secondary school. But before that, she had live four days at SMK Pendeta Za'ba before getting into Puteri. Puteri is a girl school and that really gives electric shock to her. She never know that kind of same-gender-school existed! Nevertheless, she survived that way. She meets a lot of wonderful-crazy-smart people there and learnt a lot of things. Ili, Ain, Hajar, Irena, Izzaty, Puteri are her best and good friends until today.

School is the best place on earth to her but as a normal human being, she has to leave school and get into college. She was offered to further her study at German-Malaysian Institute and hoping she could further her study in the Nazi-popular engineering land, Germany. She loves that place but sometimes she feels like certain people there are the pain on her ass :P But that is life she has to go through, no pain, no gain, no adventure no life ;D There, she changed bit by bit again. Rock music is still in her soul and hip hop is always in her heart but she is now getting sensitive than ever, thanks to the peeps there who love to make her cry. She feels like she is a baby again now :)

This is the tale of a baby, who has turned into a girl and now, into a lady. This is the synopsis of a life of a girl name Fatin Nur Shafara.

Tomorrow is her 19th birthday. She will celebrate it alone, without her family and girlfriends around for the first time. Man this is sick!

Random Photo:

I want you guys hereeee with me!!! :(((

~~~yaw!

sleepy + hungry

Ehh Jumaat dah harini! Seronok nyeee minggu ni dah habis! Sebenarnya aku rasa miggu ni berlalu dgn sgt perlahan tau. Isnin haritu je, aku dah rase mcm hari Jumaat, tak sabar nak cuti lagi punye pasal. Oh yea haritu, aku tatau lah nape aku mengidam nak makan macam2. Nasik beryani la, roti ngan eskrim la, susu coklat la, daging salai la. Masa aku tgh syok mengexpress kan kelaparan aku ni dekat Gee, Serk yang mcm makcik bru balik dr pasar tani tu pon join jugak, tup2 dia cakap dia tgh mengidam mknn Western time tu. Maka malam tu jugak ktorang plan gi makan Western! Ke Austin ayuhhh!

Aku ingat ktorang pegi berempat je, aku Gee Serk and Shakir the driver, tgk2 dorang angkut yg lain jugak - Loqo Wak Wafy and Mon. Oriate laa meriah sikit gitu. Aku makan chicken chop je. Die org ni sume makan lamb chop lah bagai. Aku nak je amek lamb chop tu tapi aku pk nak kunyah tu je dah cukup buat aku penat so baik jgn nyusahkan diri sndr. Hahah. Harga boleh tahan la dgn service dia. Cuma aku tak rase kenyang je. Balik bilik aku lapar balik hua8

Makin hari makin letih. Kerja rumah seguni TTO kasik setiap miggu. Tambah lagi dengan buku2 yang perlu di-revise satu lori. Memang tak tido malam aku setiap hari, tapi once aku dapat tido, mmg haram la aku nak jage balik guna alarm henfon ni. Kene guna tenaga manusia jugak utk kejut kan aku. Setiap pagi aku set jam pkul 6.30 tapi lately, sedar2 je tgk jam pkul 7.30. Memang menggelabah lah siap tiap pagi. Nak bekpes pon tak sempat.

Setiap hari aku complain lapar tapi makan nye tak pun. Lapar memang lapar tapi bile tgk mknn kat sini, aku hilang selera la. Rase mcm muak dah padahal bukan slalu pon aku mkn sini hahah. Entah macam mane operasi nk gemok aku ni nak berjalan dengan lancar entah. Kalo lapar sangat pagi2 aku pegi beli roti coklat namposen kat koop tu je sebijik. Everyday after habis kelas aku akan pegi Wak Dol tgk lauk ape yang ade. Minggu ni mmg sumpah lauk takde yg menarik maka aku ikat jelah perut aku ni ngan tali raffia haha ;D

Sekarang ni, di saat aku tgh menaip ni, perut aku tak abes2 mengeluarkan alunan bunyik2 tertentu. Sumpah lapar doe. Setiap malam je aku rse lapar giler babeng nak mati. Kalo cafe bukak 24 jam xpe gak, ni awal2 lg dah tutup. Mane aku nk carik makan malam2 buto ni jang! Kalo cmni tiap2 hari mungkin aku boleh terbunuh right on the spot skang jugak. Punca kematian: kelaparan yg teramat sangat. Haih ni belum kene duduk Afrika lagi ni -.-"

And lagik satu, aku baru abes layan movie Letters To Juliet ni tadi. Best la jugak. Ending die sweet, dah cukup boleh buat aku nk sambung berangan balik dah.Aku rate 9 out of 10 je la sebab hero die tu tak brape nk ensem la haha. Anyway aku patut buat hw skang tapi taleh pk doe. Tensen den jawab soklan ni dr tadi tak dapek2. Last2 aku pegi menaip natang ni hahaha. K ah ciao!

Random Photo:

Aku nak ayam!!! ;[

~~~yaw!

willkommen März!

MARCH HAS FINALLY ARRIVED!

Damn weyh seriously time flies so fast this year. I thought I just celebrated new year last week -.-"

Days after days, burdens on my shoulder and in my head are regenerating so fast that I feel I could not keep up with the pace. The real A-level exam is coming up this May. We, the GAPP students have to finish the syllabus by the end of this month! Actually, we already covered all the syllabus for this May exam but you know, A-level is split into two parts, AS and A2 in which the A2 exam will be on this October. That means, there is too little time to cover the A2 syllabus which is obviously way harder than AS. So our TTOs is dragging us to study for the second part now so that we won't get too tensed up during A2. So we are currently studying the syllabus which are not included in the AS exam. Man I am exhausted! I have to study new things which is not important yet (at this moment) and I also need to study and revise on the topics for AS. You get what I mean?! EXHAUSTED!

But Fara you have to be strong okay. Remember, this is your time to revenge mwahahaha! xD Hopefully hopefully hopefully I can get 15 points on AS. Please la please la please la Fara. If not, I'll be very disappointed with myself. Huh banyak bebel kan

Anyway, March came with splendid weather! ;D Today I woke up in misty windy morning that makes me think twice if I should wake up that instant or just snooze my alarm for one last time. If you guessed I woke up instantly, then you don't know me. Okay! Gotta go!

Random Photo:

HAHA!

~~~yaw!