It is creeping near

Wolaa wolaaaaa! My first post in 2014!

Well whatever.

What is creeping near? My exam of course!
It is really stressing me out as I have two dritte Versuch subjects. I don't really know the exact word for dritte Versuch in English or bm, but in a long explainantion term, dritter Versuch is the subject(s) that I am currently repeating for the third time and if I fail again this time, baaam! I am dead.

I am not good at managing my time and I am always confused which subject I should study for the day. Because there are too many!!!

It really brings me down knowing that I have to go through this at this early stage. Like come on...the subjects that I will be repeating for the third time are not even close to the level hard. What will happen if I were to take those subjects in the high semester? How many times would I have failed? This shit scares me.

For one year I have given up a lot. I rarely chose to go out with my friends because of this. I opt to just stay here so that my time won't be wasted. The first six months of hard work doesn't show pay off. It really turning me down. Hopefully this time it works. I am calling this my sacrifice. If it doesn't work out too, then maybe my rezeki is not here.

Gotta be strong...




~~~yaw!