Kisah kopi

Dah masuk bulan June. Tak sangka dah hampir separuh tahun 2015 berlalu. Dan aku masih di sini.

Mestilah kat sini. Kat mana lagi kau nak pegi?! Belajar pun tak habis.
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........belajar pun tak.


Ni aku nak cakap pasal kopi ni.
Aku hairan betul dengan kopi.
Kejap kasi aku segar bugar sampai terbeliak terjojol biji mata.
Kejap macam tak function. Mengantuk je aku.
Dah lama aku perhatikan gerak geri kopi ni.
Bila aku nak bersuka-ria effect dia kenmain effective.
Ibarat ada kuasa magic yang terus kasi aku tenaga untuk berjaga.
Tak tidur 2 hari pun takpa.
Aku masih boleh mengharungi hari hariku ke sana sini ke hulu hilir.
Tapi high  melalut sikit la kalau dah sampai dua hari tak tidur.
TETAPI.
Bila aku letak niat nak belajar je.
Poooooof!
Terus ghaib kuasa magic tu.
Lemah tidak bermaya je aku walaupun dah bergelen-gelen air kopi aku minum.
Kenapeeeee!?


Stress gua camni.
Exam kurang sebulan lagi.
5 paper bersamaan 10 subjek yang aku kene mentela'ah.
Tapi satu pun tak start lagi.
Sebab......kopi ni tak function!

Aku malas nak salahkan setan skang.
Dia tak bersalah dah.
Dia berjaya buat aku malas dari dulu.
Sekarang masalahnya datang daripada diri aku sendiri.
Yang asyik melayan penat tu.
Padahal aku bukannya bertukang apa pun sampai takde energy.
Asyek nak membuta je.

Aku rasa mesti ada yang kene verschieben last minit nanti.
Kah kah kah kah.
Sukanya setan tengok aku lemah gini.

Enough merepek untuk kali ni.




~~~FNSBMS

Two days left

So today is Friday and my exam starts on this Monday. Well, actually it has already started last Monday, which is English but I ain't care much about that. It is not like I am so overly confident I could get 1,0 but that subject really doesn't matter to me. I think I may get 3,0 and above because I didn't answer some part of the given question. Oh whatever.

Right now I want to express my dissatisfaction towards the German people. In this case - the professors.

Since I have a lot of trouble regarding my studies, I need to discuss about my problem with the professors involved. I thought only the students have arrogant attitude. But to my surprise, the professors are pretty much the same.

I remember when I went to see Prof. B at the beginning of the semester to see my exam paper. He literally shut my future down. He said I will never pass his exam, I will never pass any other subjects, I will never graduate in Germany and I will never ever graduate as an engineer at all. Do you how it feels to hear someone, to make it worse, a professor say that to you? I feel like I want to explode on his face. I feel like I want to tear up this place. A decent professor should give you advice or some kind of motivational talk to motivate you to be successful. Instead, he makes me want to be suicidal. I am not lying. At first I thought I am a failure and then I felt like giving up, pack my belongings and go home. To make it even worse, I am living here alone. I have no best buddy to share my problem and if I were going nuts at that time, nobody can save me except smell my rotten body.

For another subject, I went to see Dr. S. Okay he is not a professor but an engineer with the title Doctor. When I came to him there was another student discussing things with him. A Deutsche. He looked very happy, so talkative and so concern about that student's understanding. And when the kid was gone and it is my turn to discuss with him, his face immediately turned sour. He has nothing to ask me to show his concern about me, instead he pulled out a look that show how unwanted I was at that time. I asked him questions but he only replied a short answer, unlike when he answered the Deutsche's questions. For me he was being unhelpful.

And today I went to see another Prof. B. Again there were some students asking him about the subject and he was so pleased to explain it all despite his busy schedule. When he's done with the other students, he saw me waiting next to him but he quickly grab his files to go away. I was so mad because I waited for him for so long while he is explaining things to that student and the other student and the other student and when it is my turn he decided to go away?! But I managed to asked him some questions and by the look on his face, I knew he is not sincere to help me.


Am I the problem or is this really the attitude of German professors? Or is it because I am a foreigner? I have to admit there are some professors that are helpful and kind but in comparison with those who are arrogant, the difference is so big. In my opinion, this is something shameful about Germany. Professors should be professional, not showing a bad attitude and arrogant towards students, especially foreigners. I am not trying to be a boss, to ask people to do this and that, but attitude must come first. If you are working as an educator or a leader, you got to have a good personality and sincere with your job. Even if you hate the student, you have to show your effort to help them. You don't get paid to put people's hope down.

Well I hope I will get through this exam with ease.




~~~yaw!

Welcome to Nürnberg

Nürnberg, also known as Nuremberg, is the place where I will lay my heart and brain on. It is an old city, famous with its beautiful old buildings here and there. They are more conservative and you can only find few modern buildings around this area. Even though it is considered as "old", but hey, it IS a city, so that really doesn't give me problems anymore.

In comparison with my old place, Deggendorf, I think the groceries shops are more reachable there than here. But, Nürnberg offers a very good transportation system and even the shops are far away, I don't have any difficulties going there. Traveling this way is much better because you can actually explore the place very well. For example in Deggendorf, everything is just so near to my house and that makes me lazy to wander around other place. I'm an explorer bebeyh \m/

I have started my new life here for a bout 3 weeks now and I'm trying to keep up and learn more about this place. My surrounding area is quite good. The distance to my uni is only 10-15 minutes walk and there are a bunch of groceries store nearby (tho I have to walk about 10 minutes). I want to say my neighbourhood is perfect but I wouldn't do that because one thing I don't like about it is my building. It's creepy...and gloomy as well. If you first enter the building the first thing that runs in your mind must be "this place looks like a clinic or hospital". Damn. 

The hallway is creepy as well. It looks like as if you are visiting a mental hospital. But I'm glad when I go inside my room, all those fear went away because my room is quite okay. Bigger than my room in Deggendorf. The first week was scary because I didn't see anybody walking in and out of this building and I also went to the basement to find the washing machine but no, couldn't find it. And I couldn't connect to the Internet - that is the worst punishment ever. But then I met a Chinese girl next door and few other neighbours and I can connect to the Internet. Life is not dull anymore :)

Anyway, as a foreigner, to get a chance to study in Nürnberg is not easy. I didn't know they want 16 points for the language exam (TestDaF) and unfortunately I got 15 points but I still can get a place in here in 1 condition - I have to sit for another language exam (DSH). Minimun points I should get is 2 but after sitting for the exam last Monday, I don't think I could get 2 points :\ We will have to wait until the next part of the exam (Oral). If I couldn't get 2 points, I must go for German class during the whole semester -.-" Just hope for the best.

Random Photo: My room at Deggendorf 

after I finish cleaning it :)

~~~yaw!

Results

Have you ever feel unsatisfied with what you got when that is the thing you ever wanted this whole time?
Do you ever have doubt on yourself and your capabilities?
Can you differentiate between what you want to be and what you need to be?
Have you ever wished for something and it took too long to happen and that you already change your mind in that waiting period of time?


Well thats how I feel now. Confused. Unsatisfied. Fear. Frustrated.


On Wednesday 25th January 2012, I got to see a glimpse piece of my future. Alhamdulillah, my wish 4 years ago to go to Germany was granted on that day. As I scanned the thin white piece of paper, my heart was beating so fast that I feel I could not breathe and the thought of my family came running through my mind. As scanned the last subject, I felt relief, joy, overwhelmed. I'm happy for a second because I make my family proud. All the pain I felt and tears I shed from the first day I stepped my foot here until I finished the exam finally paid off.

But my happiness does not last long. When I sat back at the Auditorium waiting for my friends, suddenly I have the thought that spoils my mood for the whole day..until now.What am I going to be? Can I see myself as an engineer in the future? Can all the pictures in my head came true in the end as planned? Suddenly I fear of the German language. Suddenly the thoughts of failing playing over and over in my head.

I need time to refresh my mind but the whole Vorpraktikum and German class really disturbing my peace state of mind. 2 weeks preparation before departing is not enough damn it!




~~~yaw!

Malam ni bulan sangat indah dan cantik. Terang sangat dan bulat. Boleh nampak rekah2 pada bulan tu dengan mata kasar. Tenang hati tengok. Duduk di atas lantai pandang tingkap pon boleh nampak sinar cahaya bulan tu. Awww ;D

Mungkin bulan ini hendak menenangkan aku kot dengan paper Chemistry 4 yang macam gampang td.Sumpah aku bengang dengan diri sendiri kerana tidak dapat menjawab kesemua soalan. Dan aku bengang juga kerana ramai yang habis paper tersenyum riang, menunjukkan mereka boleh menjawab soalan itu dan secara tidak langsung menaikkan graph chemistry kali ini dan secara tidak langsung lagi menjatuh kan grade aku. Hihi. Yeap memang aku bengang tapi apakan daya masa tak akan kembali, hancur musnah nya semua nya~~ (kenal tak ayat tu haha) Bulan malam ni memberiku ketenangan dan membuatku meredhai apa yang akan berlaku. Jikalau sudah ditakdir kan aku dapat result buruk pon aku tenang menghadapinya sebab aku memang dah lama redha dengan exam celaka ni. Hehe. ;D ehemm tapi kalau boleh memang nak lepas la kan.

Tetapi apabila aku memandang ke bawah dekat buku fizik ni memang hilang ketenanganku. Maka inginku terjemahkan di sini, bulan menyuruh aku memandang nya sahaja. Bulan x kasi aku pandang buku fizik..and german hehe.

Okay tenang..tenang..tenang.....tapi..lagi tenang kalau tengok bulan yg cantik ni di tepi pantai muahahaha.

Random Photo: Ini dia gambar bulan malam ni.

Maaf gambar ni tak berapa nak clear 

sebab aku takde kamera canggih macam anda2 sume hihi :P

p/s: Bahasa yang ku tulis pada entry ini sangat...ermm..skema. Kan? haha BOOOYEAHHH mood klasik malam ni :D



~~~yaw!

fall on your face

Pure Math paper sudah selesai! ;D How was it? Jeng3 senang susah gila nak mati sampai rasa nak tergelak guling2 dalam dewan periksa tu sbb rasa macam bodoh sangat banyak tak dapat jwb =.=" pfft elok sangat lah tu. Rasa nya kalau diberi masa 1 jam ke 2 jam lebeh boleh kot jawab sume ekekeke (alasan) and maybe the invigilator should shut up at the last moment yg membuat kan aku rasa lagi cuak bila dia cakap 10 minutes or 5 minutes or 10 minutes more or another 5 minutes or 2 minutes or 1 minutes. Cakap 10 minutes je sudah la. Tak payah nak 5 minit 2 minit lah bagai -.-" aku ni gelabah orang nya. Tak tentu arah aku di buat nya bila die buat countdown cenggitu.

Nampak nya paper Mecha jela yang boleh bantu naik kan Math tapi hampeh laa Mecha pun aku x leh dapat separuh markah trial ritu -.-" agak2 lepas x kali ni? Kita nanti kan paper Mecha akan datang muahahaa


To Mama and Papa yang sudah menaiki kapal terbang pagi tadi, selamat menunaikan Haji and have a safe journey :)

Btw, Reel Steel best! ;D




::No rando photo, tenet selow bobona::



~~~yaw!

De dem dey

Down

Demotivated

Dumb

These feelings are Destroying my life.

That Dude are not here when I need him.

I was Defamed not going to Angelo's class again.

What's wrong with the negative "D" words today?

sheeeshhhh!

Thankfully Angelo approved my oral paper or else I'm so gonna kick hick dick!

Huh.

The bad news struck me when I see my Physics Paper 4 trial results ;(

Sodihhhhhh laaa! 

Buat past years Math pun fail.

Exam is next week! 

Feeling so Damn pressured now!

Merepek.

______________________________

There are this couple in my friend list whom I didn't know about

Amir Zulfakar & Fara Saje

(seriously didn't know them and I don't know how they got lost in my friend list)

But I think they are pretty cute together

♥

Merepek II.

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Random Photo:

Awh ni pun comel jugak ;D

~~~yaw!

been craving for FOODS!

Minggu ni merupakan mnggu trial exam yg kedua which give me a second chance to make up all the failures I got in the first trial. Maka, tekanan mula naik. Stress mula datang. And most important thing I want to highlight: Lapar dan mengidam macam2!

For this week je aku dah mengidam banyak gila makanan and kalau nak diikutkan kalau tiap hari aku layan perasaan ni mau habes 50 hinggit this week makan tiap hari. Tapi2 since aku dalam mode berjimat maka makan kena 1 kali sehari jaa and xkan la tiap hari nak makan luar kan giloo. Kalau ajak kawan2 pegi pun tak nak dorang dehh hbes duit awal2 bulan ni. Huhu =.="

Half boiled eggs

Sllrrrrpppp! Ini kalau dapat makan pagi2 or malam2 time tgh sejuk memang syok neyh! Kalau kat bilik ade stok telur memang guwa dah buat dah tp malang nya takda. Malas nak gi beli huhu. Telur separuh masak ni, kalau dapat yg OldTown nye layan neyh. Yummeyhhhh ;D

Daging Salai Masak Lemak

Lomak bhaii lomakkkk! Sumpah dah lama tak makan gulai lemak. Kafe Wak Dol tak jual lauk cenggini lorr, banyak kari2 asam2 kicap2 minyak2 je. I know the best cook yg boleh masak lauk ni - my Abah and Emak <3 <3 <3 Nope, not my real Ibu and Ayah. Mak n Abah are my guardian masa kecik2 dulu. Kalau pegi rumah dia mintak dia masak ni, nanti dah habes makan pon mulut still nak mengunyah lagi. Hmm maybe sebab ade daging tersekat kat celah2 gigi hoho. Ini makan siang2 lepas balik kelas sumpah layan ni boleh bertambah2 nasi ;p

Sup Ekor / Sup Tulang / Sup Daging

Haaa ini yang kena hirup ni. Selalu makan sup2 cenggini bila kat luar dengan family. Sup ni mesti order meh baru rasa kepuasan makan. Tapi selalu nya kalau order ni aku tak makan pon daging2 tulang tu semua. Aku hanya amek kuah sup tu je agagaga yg lain lantak pi la orang lain nak makan.

Daging Masak Merah

Tengok gambar tu dekat2, nampak sedap kan utk diratah2? Hohoho.Ha ini pon sama mcm yg kat atas ni, selalu makan dengan family order ni jugak. So kalau nak tau ape menu yg selalu aku makan dgn family, ni la dia. Aku akan cepat2 amek daging2 merah tu byk2 (tamak tak nak kasi adik aku makan lbeh) and letak sup sebagai pembasah nasi. Pembasah? That sounds so wrong man ngeh3

Roti Kaya

Ok sumpah terliur tgk gambar ni, rasa macam nak pegi OldTown skang jugak tp mana ada bukak tgh malam natang ni haih. Roti kaya OldTown mmg the best lah tapi dorang ni dekut arr, letak kaya ciput naa ;( Tapi still sedap sampai membuatkan aku rase mengidam bagaikan pmpuan mengandung =.=" Dah2 jangan tgk gambar lg.

Gulai Udang Masak Lemak Cili Api

Cili api ke cili padi? Huh pedulik kan lah. Haaa ni dia lauk yg membuatkan aku rase nak balik rumah sekarang jugak suruh Ibu masak. Ini baru betul Ibu aku awww <3 <3 <3 Kalau nak ikot kan hati mau aku beli udang santan kunyit sume kat Econsave nuh tapi alamak lupa resipi la pulak. Penah blaja masak ni dulu hihihi. Takpe2 nanti ade mase blaja masak lg yerr. Nyumm2 udang oh udang. Dapat udang yg besar2 memang tido tergolek la aku lepas tu hohoho

McFlurry Milo Mcd

Ubatku semasa otak tengah hang huhu. Ingat computer je ke boleh hang ah, otak aku pon boleh lahhh haha. Eskem ni selamat dapat rasa malam Ahad lepas. Ptg2 study sampai xleh masuk nak muntah tgk buku last2 aku terpakse surrender dan ajak Gee and Syaza makan skali heheh. Ini gamba lama, kalau McFlurry Milo skrg die ade letak Milo biji2 kecik cereal tu. Lagi rangup krukk krakk krukk krakk ;D

Mac and Cheesee

Ohh ini makan begitu sahaja sumpah best lebeh2 lagi kalau Kenny Roger's punya yummeyhh mommeyhh ;D Tapi alang2 dengan gambar ni aku nampak ayam sekali, kalau dapat jugak ni mmg konyang perut den 1 malam. Satu malam je kenyang haha perut aku skang ni cpt process mknn so cepat jugak rasa lapar muahahah

Aduhh dugaan makanan. Kalau lah aku kaya aku dah melantak dah sume ni. Study tu boleh kasi pause jap, kita makan dulu haha. Ajaran sesat sbnr nya ni, jangan ikot ye kawan2. Aku kalau dah makan memang musnah dah lepas tu - tidooooo lama gila. Memang tak ke mana lah nk belajar. Oke sumpah lapar. Makan megi lagi malam ni sebab ehemm...tade sape nak teman makan malam hahah. 

Physics trial tomorrow. Gtg!

~~~yaw!

chem practical tomorooo

Esok exam Chemistry Paper 3, that is practical dlm lab!
Hope I don't break any apparatus or burn anything!
Wish me luck!



~~~yaw!

Once a ____, always a ____! ;p

Suddenly last weekend my childhood friend, Farhin, told me that he is going to GMI this Monday (yesterday). I was like waaw memang lama tak jumpa dia ni so why not jumpa sekejap that morning (even though I have Physics paper that afternoon). He is studying at Miat (I always get confused Miat and MFI -.- booohoo), and he was having a Sports Day yesterday. Miat takde facilities yang lengakp dia cakap, thats why datang sini. That morning I went to the basketball court and dapat lah borak dengan die skejap and then he has to practice basketball. So I just sit there watching 'em play under the hot sun..and uh si rambut singa jual cendol ade lol.

Pasal exam that day, haih tak payah cerita lah, pagi tu kalau nak study pon mmg tak masuk dah, so baik melilau2 tgk orang main je, and sbb panas sgt aku ari la pegi library, dapat aircond gahaha. Macam mana exam Physics haritu aku tak nak cerita, malas dan tak nak ingat dah. Kita tgk kehadapan sahaja oritee! XD


After exam, terus out dengan Gee Ila Syaza Shakir and Zak, makan kat kedai bru tuh, apo name nye tah, MFC kot. Dia serve macam pizza and ala2 kfc punya menu, but it is a Malay punya owner. Guwa rate 4 out of 10 stars je lah..they still need to improve the foods a whole damn lot. Schlecht!! Tambah2 lagi dengan mood aku yang  dah dispoil kan, mmg tak lalu nk makan. Serk hantar dajal kat aku! Menyampah!

After that ikot Shakir Zak Ila and Gee pegi Kajang, dorang nk main bowling but us girls just rayau2 tgk barang kat mall tu je. Kami beli puzzle! Weee! Excited3! Lame dah x buat puzzle. And Gee beli papan darts tu fuyoo hebat la dorang main2 natang tu nt. Then pegi kat tasik kat Putrajaya. Wehh tempat tu cantekkk! Gi dating best tuh wukakaka. Lepak2 ngan kawan2 pun best. Ktorang just borak2 and main make-up2 kuku Ila hohohoho! Aman damai tgk view kat situ.. Malam gi makan nasi bujang jerrr, jimat duit huhu.

Dah malas nk cite pepanjang. Chow!

Random Photo:

Balloons! Got it last Saturday masa party befday dekat rumah Zaty.

~~~yaw!

before mecha & chem 2

Esok saye exam Mechanics & Chemistry  2

Wish me luck!

Dgn usaha yang tak seberapa ni, tawakal je la yang aku mampu.

Selamat berperang dengan kertas2 durjana itu esok ye Faraaa!

;D

Malam semalam saye emo tak tentu pasal

Kalau kamu arif bab2 ini, mesti kamu tahu kenape

Ghahahaha

Malam semalam tak boleh belajar, sebab otak bengang tak tentu arah

Jadi, ape yg saye buat berjam2 malam semalam? 

Conteng2 kertas ngeheheh

Bila emo..hahah

Nak tau barang apa yang paling beruntung dari tuan nye?

Ahaaa barang2 aku laaa

Sudah 2 malam aku tidur kat atas lantai

Sebab nye, barang2 aku sudah berjaya kongker katil aku

Mula2 memang sodap tido atas lantai je

Tapi bangun2 memang azab lah, keras segala anggota badan aku

2 hari sebelum nya pulak aku tido separuh katil je

Kepala ngan badan je enak tido atas katil

Kaki terjuntai kat lantai muahahah

Ini semua gara2 malas nak alih kan barang2 

;p

Sumpah xtau mcm mne nak kemas semua ni

Takpe itu hari kau, malam ni aku mesti tidur atas katil jugak!

Tak kire tak kire!

Esok nak exam mesti tido dengan aman dan nyenyak nya

:)

~~~yaw!

before pure math exam

Minggu lepas merupakan minggu belajar sendiri atau bak kato omputih study week ;p Kelas memang dah takde except german class la itu pun smpai rabu je. Extra class ada jugak tapi itu untuk class lain, and yg aku tau class aku mmg tak buat extra class rase nye. Tak larat nak pegi kelas dah, memang kalau dah dekat nk exam ni aku lagi suke study sorang2 dari beramai2 dlm 1 kelas tu. Tapi study dengan kawan2 sikit2 pon xjalan jugak, leka nak berborak je ekekeke ;D Kelas german pon aku rase tak larat, tak larat nk belajar, because mcm2 perkataan baru nak kne blajar and nanti ade exam A2 pulak :/

Mentang-mentang lah dapat bawak kereta lagi, bukan main lagi merayap sana sini. Since Isnin lepas cuti due to Labour Day, jadi balik GMI balik malam isnin tu la dengan harapan tak jam. Damn sumpah jam gile batak, keluar tol Senawang je dah stuck dalam jam strawberry (lampu break merah je nmpk) ;p Nasib baik boleh keluar tol port dickson and terpaksa lah aku lalu jalan jauh sikit pergi Lekas. Lagi rela lalu jalan jauh yang bergerak dari jalan dekat yang x bergerak2. Sampai2 GMI trus naik bilik atas, bergossip gahaha sampai tak tidur kot malam tu.


Selasa - Pagi ada class jerman. Siang tu abes kan mase menghendap kereta ayang Syaza ni. Hahaha tgk dari jauh jela dari biilik aku, macam mana rupa muka mamat dia tu aku sndr tatau, aku tak penah plak nk cam muka dia tu even slalu nmpk die main tennis dulu2. Baru aku sedar strategic jugak bilik aku ni ekekeke. Sumpah tak sedar2 exam nak dekat tak blajar2 lagi :O


Rabu - After class Jerman pergi library, tak bleh duduk bilik, nanti kompem tak blajar. Kat library tu ada pulak pertandingan gunung berapi, bru teringat aku ade kawan yg participate situ, ingat kan nk pegi tengok tapi3 ramai la orang, sogan lak den nk pegi. Kalau kawan aku tu datang guide aku xpe jugak, ini entah mane die lesap di sebalik asap ntah.

Khamis and Jumaat dah takde kelas so pagi2 mesti bangun pergi library ngeh3 as I said earlier, duduk bilik tak jalan kerja, katil tu banyak setan muahahah. Pagi Khamis pergi breakfast kat mcd ngan kengkawan. Eceyh breakfast nk mewah je kan lalala~ Sekali sekala takpe. Before ke library, singgah blakang dewan jap tengak kawan sorang lagi ni msuk pertandingan roket. Syaza punya pasal la ni nak sangat tgk roket tu ;p Pheewiit slim je roket die, dapat third place rite?? hahaha dah dapat menang laser tu jangan nk laser aku sgt la lol. Tengah hari pergi karok kat Malaysian Idol tu. Memang berbaloi, 2 jam, berpuluh2 lagu ktorang main. Suara pun dah macam jantan dah main lagu screamo emo. Memang dah macam night club dah ktorang buat ;D

Ila and Gee

Woops Syaza tak masuk ;p

There you go, the 4 of us :)

 Tengok2 rocket selim ;p hauih bona 

Pagi Jumaat ade meeting dengan Miss Mazz skejap, dia nak bagi slip prekse and tunjuk sikit tempat exam tuh. First time jejak KT2 wooo. Kosong jeh building tuh -.-" Mase kat library sumpah lapar, macam2 benda mengidam ngeheheh tapi kami semua sepakat nak makan nasi briyani. Masa solat jumaat ktorang keluar la s15, ciss bedebah, kedai tu tutup, maka terpaksa lah carik kdai lain. Jumpa 1 kdai ni, perghh mahal nak mampuih, tp dah duduk jadi redha jelah. Duit pun baru msuk, nak bayar ape pun x kesah ekeke ;D

Uuuu lazat nyaa ;D

Malam Jumaat ade buat solat hajat kat surau gmi for gapp student utk exam ni. Student lain pon boleh join jugak. Ade makan2 after that, nasik ayam wooo. Kenyang ayam aku hari tu hahahah!

Sabtu bangun pon matahari dah tegak atas kepala. Ibu call kata die ade kat Bangi, nak beli barang2 cake. Dia nak pegi 1 kedai barang2 cake ni tapi xtau kat mne so terpaksa lah aku gi tunjuk kan tempat tu. Dan2 dapat makan lunch nasi briyani lagi hak3. Fathir baru beli basikal wooopp2 mmg aku nak main lah. Petang tu try naik, perghhh maluuuuuu! Tak reti naik basikal wakakakkaka!! Sebab dah lame tak main, nak imbang pun  tak reti, bergetar-getar je basikal tu lalalala~~ Tapi lama2 try terer da, pusing2 GMI huhuh


Malam tu gi makan kat Village View and after that lepak lagi kat port bese. Tup2 ramai plak join malam tuh hahah, Fathir pun turun bawak basikal baru dia and Faiz pun turun jugak bwk basikal dia ngeh3. Best nyeee main basikal tgh2 malam lepas tu memekik melolong skali. Malang sungguh siape yg duduk dekat area ktorang tu, mesti bengang je sebab bising sgt lol. Mula2 igt balik awal lepas mkn tu nak la pegi study ke ape en, dah sume budak2 ni join the club memang haram la, pukul 2 lebeh baru naik bilik haha. Bile dah kat bilik sempat buat latihan sikit pastu gone baby gone ;D

Ahad tu kene berdisplin sikit, ngantuk ke malas ke kene jugak blajar, sebab mmg dah kritikal time tu. Tak blaja jugak tu tatau la ape nak jadi haha. Petang tu disebab kan panas sgt pegi beli ice cream tapi damn jam jalan, sampai GMI balik dah nk mgrib, so postpone jelah makan malam nt.

Start malam tu aku dah pening2 loya2 dah tatau la nape. Nervous sangat kot. Tak tenteram je rse, nak belajar pon x larat, nak muntah! Hahahahaha tapi memang x muntah la ;p Dahla tak ngantok, memang x dapat tido awl la. Hyper semacam je, maybe sbb makan byk sgt ice cream kot hohoho. Thank God paper math is overrr! Now boleh focus at more killing subjects.. Chow!

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Budak 2 ekor ni memang canwhore ;D

~~~yaw!

yea saya risau :S

Isnin ini saya exam Pure Math

Doakan saya berjaya

Harap tak buat banyak careless mistakes

Harap dapat jawab dengan hati yg tenang

Tak habis study lagi ni

Wish me luck yaww!

~~~yaw!

I missed it

Dikala malam bulan mengambang, terpinggir aku dibilik seorang. Haha bosan bhai! Family aku semua tengah berseronok enjoy holiday kat Tioman, aku sorang je yg tertinggal kat sini ;( sodihhh! Ini semua gara2 exam punya pasal. Ishh kalau takde exam chemistry yg menggatal nak buat trial kali ketiga tu, aku dah pegi dah =.=" Ahh jeles nye jeles nye jeles nyeee, nak gi pantai jugak wuuu ;[

Tapi nasib baiklah aku tak ditinggalkan mcm tu je. Ayah kasi aku bawak kete balik gmi hehe tapi alahai nak gi mane je sini. Exam nk dekat, budak2 ni cm malas klua je. Nak klua selalu pun duit pun kne slalu klua jugak haiyaa. Tapi di mana ade kemahuan di situ ade jalan, bila ade kemahuan klua, jalan raya mmg terbentang luas ngeh3. So sape2 nk klua lai2 kite ronggeng same, tp minggu ni jelah yer.

Sabtu ni kakak aku dah kene balik London balik. Nak hantar die balik ke tak entah. Flight die pun aku tatau pkul brape. Sabtu ni jugak aku ade hal kat sini so mcm malas nak balik rumah. Isnin depan cuti hari pekerja. Minggu depan MAYBE takde kelas dah sebab study week. Haih berat hatiku nak pulangkan krete kat rumah. Minggu dpn mcm best je kalau nak jalan2 hahaha *exam nak dekat tak sedar2 lagi. Hantu betul!

~> Sekarang mengidam nak makan durian sangat3.

~> Gigi aku sgt annoying after appointment last Saturday. Gatal! Rase nak gigit2 je sume bende

~> Doctor potong gusi aku without bg tau aku. Teruk btul =.="

~> Markah chemistry dah dapat..teruk..tak suke tak suke

~> Keinginan aku nak makan naik mendadak2 skang sbb ahaa you know why.. Risau duit habis kat makanan je -.-"

~> Baru perasan warranty ipod hilang. Now nk fix camera dah tak boleh

~> Ali Muaaz, gotcha!

Esok exam chemistry lagi. Gtg. Wish me luck.

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Sennheiser headphone during pc fair. Sumpah lembut doee natang ni. Geram je bile letak kat telinga hahahah. Tengok harga pon geram jugak

~~~yaw!

dah habis trial 2

Alhamdulillah, tamat sudah trial kedua aku :) Macam tak sangka betul trial dah habes and when I sat down alone and thought about it, damn I got 18 days left until my real exam! Cuak tak cuak? Of course lah cuak, takot, risau, nervous.. Kalau aku tak rase semua tu makna nye aku bukan manusia lagi dah. Tapi, ape yang membuat kan aku rase tenang sikit sebab exam tu sebulan - 4 subjects, 8 papers only. Elehhhhh sikit je tu *buat gaye Mr. Bo ngeh3 ;p and the gap between each paper is about one week so when I hear that it's kind of give me chill...just a little bit.

Jadual exam AS aku :S

Walaubagaimanapun, (fuhh bukan main panjang lagi), paper sikit pon kalau tak belajar betul2 tak guna jugak sebabbbbbbbb paper die tough2 ketak2 bhaii. Ini aku tak tipu lah. Kalah lah SPM dulu. Dulu2 masa zaman sekolah, mak bapak kite, cikgu2, makcik2 pakcik2 atuk nenek selalu cakap kan, "Belajar elok2, spm tu penentu masa depan,". Tapi aku rase bohong jela semua tu. Ni aku dah setahun lebih tinggal kan sekolah, tamatkan spm, masa depan aku tak tentu2 jugak lagi =.="

Bagi aku, semua benda sekarang ni tak menjamin ape2 lagi. Kau dapat stret A spm, belum tentu kau dpt biasiswa. Kau dpt biasiswa, belum tentu kau dapat kos yang kau nak. Kau dpt kos yang kau nak, tak semesti nya kau dpt belajar dkt tmpt yang kau nak. Kau dpt belajar dekat tempat yang kau nk, belum tentu lagi kau dapat teman2 kawan2 yang kau rase best untuk jadi penghibur or kawan yg setia bantu kau. Kau dapat girlfriend/boyfriend yang kau nak, belum tentu girlfriend/boyfriend kau tu setia kat kau. Kau dapat girlfriend/boyfriend yang setia, belum tentu kau dapat kawen ngan dia sebab kau masih muda and perjalanan kau masih jauh. Eh ehh ehhhh kawen pulak pegi nye. Ni dah mcm lari topik dah neh hahahahahha.

But my point is, semua benda yang kita ada sekarang belum menjadi hak milik kita sepenuh nya. So kite tak boleh leka dgn keseronokan dunia dan menganggap apa yg kita sudah ade tu takkan ditarik balik because it definitely will be taken away from when you least expect it.

Ape yang aku cuba nak sampai kan ni? Hahahaha lupe dah. Patut cakap pasal trial aku sbnr nye. Ok2 let's continue..

Trial kedua ni bagi aku, rase mcm skejap je. Pejam celik bace jawab tido makan pejam celik bace jawab tido makan pejam celik bace jawab tido makan TADAAAAAA DAH HABIS! :)) And truthfully, effort belajar aku untuk trial kali ini sangat333 sikit berbanding trial sebelum ni. Lagi nak exam lagi malas aku nak bukak buku bace buku dan belajar. Hehehe setakat bukak buku tu mmg tiap2 hari aku bukak buku, cuma belajar tak belajar je yg belum tau lagi ;D

Masa tido and jaga aku sekarang sangat tak stable dah. Aku boleh jaga malam, sampai lah the next morning yang aku ada exam tu, but during the day, aku mati.. Tatau mane hilang kah3. Mimpi pon tak so kire mati lah tu kan. And percayalah, aku dah imune dengan alarm clock electronic, hanya tenaga manusia je can bring be back from the dead muahahahah. Aku dah set jam banyak gila, dekat handphone je aku set 3 alarm, 1 setiap 15 minit so the 2nd alarm will start ringing before aku lena. Dekat ipod aku dah set 2 alarm. So total alarm clock yang aku pasang setiap hari sebelum aku tidur adalah 5 TAPI semua alarm tu kira x berfungsi =.=" Kalau room mates aku tak kejut kan, mmg smpai esok pagi tu balik baru aku bangun kot.

Mechanics : Susah weyh tapi nasib baik aku ada buat dulu soklan tu the night before so takde lah terkejut beruk tahap gaban sgt bila tgk soklan tu

Chemistry 1 : hmm chem mmg tak bleh nk spot ape yg klua sbb slalu nye tto pilih random question dari past yr questions, tak macam subject lain yg slalu amek the whole complete set from 1 year only. Maka banyak jugak lah kertas jwpn yg berlubang2 ditembak aku ngeh3

Physics 2 : aik boleh tahan pulak soklan kali ni. kira moderate lah. tak susah sgt, tak senang sgt

Mathematics : Yang ini pun nasib baik aku buat sikit dah soklan die the night before, kalau tak mmg kat situ jugak lah aku gantung diri tak dapat jwb

Cemistry 2 : Omakkkk aiiii aku paling pantang kalau soklan 1st die kasik susah2, mmg confident aku jatuh masuk gaung lah cmtu. Susah doe guwa cakap sama lu. Lu jgn men2 dgn chem woo -.-"

Physics 1 : Haa yang ni, actually aku tak belajar langsung malam tu. Bangun tido ptg tu, gossip2 jap, online jap, tido jap, bangun balik, tido jap, bangun balik, online and tadaaa dah terang =.=" aku jawab soklan dengan redha jelah..

Kesimpulannya, my life is a mess when exam is near. Tak percaya? Tengok bilik je dah boleh tau. Buku cawan sampah kertas tisu ubat duit sume bersepah kat satu tempat, and satu tempat tu jugak lah aku bertapa malam2 and kat satu tempat tu jugak lah aku makan malam and kat satu tempat tu jugak lah aku online malam2. Serabut3 bahahahahah

Nak blaja mmg takde mood dah. Nak tido rase mcm dah puas dah. So ni jelah untuk isi masa lapang ni ;p

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Yes I am tired of everything. Tired of studies, life, family, friends and YOU!

~~~yaw!