Two days left

So today is Friday and my exam starts on this Monday. Well, actually it has already started last Monday, which is English but I ain't care much about that. It is not like I am so overly confident I could get 1,0 but that subject really doesn't matter to me. I think I may get 3,0 and above because I didn't answer some part of the given question. Oh whatever.

Right now I want to express my dissatisfaction towards the German people. In this case - the professors.

Since I have a lot of trouble regarding my studies, I need to discuss about my problem with the professors involved. I thought only the students have arrogant attitude. But to my surprise, the professors are pretty much the same.

I remember when I went to see Prof. B at the beginning of the semester to see my exam paper. He literally shut my future down. He said I will never pass his exam, I will never pass any other subjects, I will never graduate in Germany and I will never ever graduate as an engineer at all. Do you how it feels to hear someone, to make it worse, a professor say that to you? I feel like I want to explode on his face. I feel like I want to tear up this place. A decent professor should give you advice or some kind of motivational talk to motivate you to be successful. Instead, he makes me want to be suicidal. I am not lying. At first I thought I am a failure and then I felt like giving up, pack my belongings and go home. To make it even worse, I am living here alone. I have no best buddy to share my problem and if I were going nuts at that time, nobody can save me except smell my rotten body.

For another subject, I went to see Dr. S. Okay he is not a professor but an engineer with the title Doctor. When I came to him there was another student discussing things with him. A Deutsche. He looked very happy, so talkative and so concern about that student's understanding. And when the kid was gone and it is my turn to discuss with him, his face immediately turned sour. He has nothing to ask me to show his concern about me, instead he pulled out a look that show how unwanted I was at that time. I asked him questions but he only replied a short answer, unlike when he answered the Deutsche's questions. For me he was being unhelpful.

And today I went to see another Prof. B. Again there were some students asking him about the subject and he was so pleased to explain it all despite his busy schedule. When he's done with the other students, he saw me waiting next to him but he quickly grab his files to go away. I was so mad because I waited for him for so long while he is explaining things to that student and the other student and the other student and when it is my turn he decided to go away?! But I managed to asked him some questions and by the look on his face, I knew he is not sincere to help me.


Am I the problem or is this really the attitude of German professors? Or is it because I am a foreigner? I have to admit there are some professors that are helpful and kind but in comparison with those who are arrogant, the difference is so big. In my opinion, this is something shameful about Germany. Professors should be professional, not showing a bad attitude and arrogant towards students, especially foreigners. I am not trying to be a boss, to ask people to do this and that, but attitude must come first. If you are working as an educator or a leader, you got to have a good personality and sincere with your job. Even if you hate the student, you have to show your effort to help them. You don't get paid to put people's hope down.

Well I hope I will get through this exam with ease.




~~~yaw!